Tuesday, March 04, 2008

I've Got Nothing To Say but It's O.K.

Good Morning! Good Morning!

You ever read those blogs where someone's life changes, and you get bored reading them?

There's a blog I used to read that had that happen. Now I won't say who it was, but they underwent a life change and the original "yo no sé*" that attracted me to the blog was gone after this change.

It became a bore to read it and I quit subscribing to the feed.

I feel like my blog is starting to become a bore to read for the same reason.

This recovery crap is so consuming and seems to be sucking every creative spark (not to mention time) out of my life.

As a result, I'm hard pressed to come up with anything remotely interesting to blog about.

And even when I do blog about the boring stuff (see the first half of the last post) it's ranting. I know I'm not 100% anger free yet. I took a trip via the Way Back Machine last night and man, I've been angry a very, very long time.

Or maybe it's just a dry spell. Hypersensitivity is a hallmark of what I'm finding myself to be so I could just be over reacting to the current situation.

I need to remember that sometimes I got nothin' to contribute.

So if you don't hear from me here, I'm not gone. I'm just trying to figure shit out and don't have time to say anything worthwhile.

Everytime I say I'm taking a break though something positively blog worthy comes along and it makes me look like a hypocrite. But ah well letting go is part of recovery too I suppose.

*The Bezzie-Spanish way of replacing the oft used French phrase je ne sais quoi. Welcome to America. French people aren't risking their lives to become a part of this country, it's time to abandon our archaic adopted French sayings.



Blogger Carol said...

No worries. Blog what ya wnt and rant if ya wnt. actually, I enjoy a good rant. Makes me feel like I'm not alone in the ranty-ness....

9:04 PM  
Blogger Elizabeth said...

I think my stats and comments go up when I rant.

But do what makes it good for you. Your truly devoted followers will be here for you no matter what.

9:24 PM  
Blogger janna said...

You know, I hardly ever have anything interesting to say! ;-) Say what you want to say, and if people aren't interested, they can unsubscribe. But some of us will keep listening....

9:31 PM  
Blogger Beverly said...

I never find you boring. Take all the time you need. We'll be waiting patiently for your return. Take care of you.

9:35 PM  
Blogger ElizaMac said...

Boring is as boring does. You Bezzie, are not boring. And, this is YOUR blog, your space to reflect on things in your life- not necessarily a place to entertain others (although that is a nice bonus!). Your strength over this time (yeah, I have been blogstalking you) has been inspiring. You rock and I find it hard to believe that your blog could ever be boring...

10:12 PM  
Blogger Wendy said...

Yes, it's true that the French aren't risking their lives to get into America; however, they were killing themselves (and many more Englishmen) to get into Britain, from whence our language came, and because the English were unsuccessful in halting the Norse advance of William, the Bastard ... er, Conqueror, our language is laced with French influences - damned Frenchies!

My linguistics professor didn't like the French much.

I've never found your blog boring, because even when you're not really covering a topic in which I'm interested, you say it in such a way that it is interesting :).

10:26 PM  
Blogger Rachel said...

I find all your meanderings interesting :)
Meander when you want, blog when you want, methinks we'll all be here when you get back.
Hey, I took an unexplained and unannounced several month blog hiatus, and people were still waiting for me when I got back, gourd love 'em.

10:29 PM  
Blogger Starfish said...

Well you commented on my last post, so I'm assuming it's not me you're bored with. Whew.

Go, be free, and come back whenever you can. We'll be here.

10:35 PM  
Blogger IrishgirlieKnits said...

See, even when you say you have nothing to say, you have a lot to say. Hang in there Bezzie. DOn't worry about us! We'll be here :)

12:14 AM  
Blogger Dkswife said...

Good grief! Take all the time you need! I don't blame you for not wanting to blog for a while. I'll be here waiting though!



4:42 AM  
Blogger Disco said...

I don't think you're overreacting to the situation - your husband is an alcoholic and is on the brink of losing his job. I think you are dealing with the situation with grace and sanity. You are entitled to be angry. Anger doesn't just go away in days or even weeks.

And on the contrary, you have a lot to say and a lot of people who want to hear you speak your mind.

We'll wait til you're ready though ;-) Good luck

5:57 AM  
Blogger Pinkwool said...

I know how you feel and I feel that half of my readers are feeling that way too. You and I are in that "transition" boat and it kinda blows. Atleast yous till blog. I cant say the same.

Keep your chin up, Bezz. /hugs

6:05 AM  
Blogger The Curly Knitter said...

Take care of yourself and your family. If I were you I'd be spewing forth venom of anger for weeks so I think you've handled this very well from a blog reader's perspective. You know though, cute cat pictures always work if there's nothing to say...

6:11 AM  
Blogger Miss T said...

You're not boring!

7:41 AM  
Blogger Ina said...

"Nothing to say but what a day how's your boy been." Hang in there!

8:42 AM  
Blogger Magatha said...

Harsh life experiences can temporarily slap the sarcasm right outta you. It's OK, it'll come back. Once you go smart ass you never go back. Rant baby, rant. It's OK. Peeps love rant.

Good luck,(buena suerte, bon chance) dumping that French, since it makes up about 40% of the "English" language thanks to the Norman conquest of England in 1066. We could all take the middle ground and use the English, "I don't know what."
I'm of the snobby opinion that since English, Spanish and French are the languages of North America we should all have a working knowledge of all three.

9:04 AM  
OpenID knittinontherocks said...

Actually, I have been reading your blog for a bit now, and I have to tell you that I NEVER get bored reading what you have to say. I love your perspective. I look forward to each post you make girlie....I, for one, am not leavin' ya babe!

9:26 AM  
Blogger knottygnome said...

hey it happens. we can't all be sparkling bloginistas all the time.

i'm going through a dull phase myself. and by phase i mean, "probably the rest of my lifespan."

9:54 AM  
Blogger Laura said...

Oh don't worry about it Bezzie. Sometimes I don't have anything to say, either. I think your blog is always interesting, and I enjoy reading it.

10:00 AM  
Blogger weezalana said...

There's no pressure in blogging.

Post when you want, how you want, and what you want..er..to post about (dammit, my supercool snappy list there didn't work out the way I thought it would...I'm blaming the coffee). Your friends will always be here to listen. :)

10:26 AM  
Blogger Donna Lee said...

Recovery is an all consuming thing at times. This is your LIFE after all. Do what you need to and if you have nothing to say, say it. Life has a way of making us all look like fools one time or another.

12:04 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hum, I am trying to think of something to tell you, something that will make everything be OK, But I have nothing. I do know that you do have freinds and that they all will be here for you. You are angry, you grew up in a home where there was one alcoholic and one dependant(Me). It is my beleive that had I taken you and your siblings out of that arena that you would not have grown up to be such strong people. You would have been blinded of the affects of alcohol, and may have taken that route yourselves. Hang in there. I am proud of you and all that you do. Love, Mom

12:19 PM  
Blogger Dkswife said...

That's right mom! Your mom rocks. Will she adopt me?

2:28 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I like your blog and pop by from time to time, more often than that in fact, do what you need to do, just keep posting.

I'm having a break away from my liquid chums at the moment too, a certain Mr JD and his friend who is made from apples (well mostly apples). This is a second attempt. I have a small appreciation of what you're both going thru'. At least you two have each other on the journey, even if you're a little mad with him from time to time.

Chin Chin

2:31 PM  
Anonymous joymama said...

If being 'normal' makes you boring, honey, you can see you have a lot of company! Rant, be pissed off, be creative, take some time, blog, don't blog, craft, be happy, be confused, rejoice in Chunky, rejoince in yourself. It's all part of the healing process. I can't tell you how thankful I was to have my daughter while my hubby was going thru his rehab period(s). It gave me a reason to get up and get thru my day otherwise I might have sat on the couch all day watching Springer and doing bong hits or something.

Here's more experience that I regret and don't want you to do...I quit talking to some friends who were very supportive because I didn't want to be a 'bummer' or talk about my issues. Years later it's been hard to reestablish those relationships, so Bezzie, please keep up with us when you feel like it.

You don't owe anyone anything but you owe it to yourself to do what you need. What you're going thru is a bitch.

3:04 PM  
Blogger Christina said...

Don't worry about boring your readers. I personally don't ever find you boring. Anyway, life happens and blogging isn't number 1. Take all the time you need.

5:51 PM  
Blogger Carol said...

I'm right there with ya, just different shit as the cause. RK is never boring and nobody rants like you ;-)

6:56 PM  
Blogger Batty said...

I feel like that too. You know, come home from work, dead tired, find that all the funny has up and left. It's OK. You'll get your blogging mojo back, and we'll be here when that happens.

8:27 PM  
Blogger Olga said...

Because I have the corner on BORING- I'll just say what they said....but with feeling.

8:36 AM  
Blogger Magatha said...

Oh, and one more thing..

c'mere... this is just between you and me...

I sometimes want to quit being a smart ass and take life seriously. It is usually when things are going dreadfully wrong in the health dept. I am an atheist who read a 12 stepper homily book yesterday about giving it all up and over to gawd. I actually thought about it. I tried to swallow it intellectually. I sort of see what they are getting at, that there are things beyond our control and a certain amount of surrender will bring you peace but I still don't believe.
All that sort of serious examination of everything can kill the desire to talk trivia, which is really what blogging boils down to, the banal, the trivial, ephemera. Clever chit chat.
I bore myself daily on my blog.

12:50 PM  
Blogger Sarah said...

You've got a lot on your plate right now. If people are going to run because of that, well, let 'em. I'll keep checking on ya!

And rants aren't all that boring ;-)

5:53 AM  
Blogger cpurl17 said...

Hey, I'd give you a "Your Blog Makes Me Yawn Award", but you don't deserve it.

I love reading your blog and hope that you're doing okay.

7:56 AM  
Blogger maggie said...

I'm just catching up. I needed some personal days myself. Sorry for all your troubles. Life throws way to much shit at us...
Hang in there and post when you feel like. It looks like a lot of people will be waiting to see what you have to say :)

Oh, and I do believe that rants are needed.

8:42 AM  

Post a Comment

<< Home